I went back to ADAS(Local drug and alcohol support charity) today for the second time.The woman who I met last time asked me how I was getting on and I told her that I hadn’t drank and that the alcohol chart she gave me to fill in was empty.She was very pleased and so was I!

We sat down and started by writing a list of the pro’s and cons of drinking.The cons list was huge of course and it was a helpful exercise to do.She then wanted a list of all the good things that have happened to me in the past week and all of the bad.The good list was quite long and the whole point of this exercise was to reinforce the fact that good things do indeed start happening when you stop drinking.She said that it was good to have these ideas written down so that you can see them visually.

It was only a half hour session but I enjoyed it and walked away feeling lighter.I have another session next week.

I need more to follow.

It was really nice to see my friends folks and be sober.It was nice to spend a few hours chatting and being able to look them in the eye with no reason to feel guilty.

I am a lot quieter when I’m sober but that’s way better then being a loud, obnoxious drunk who isn’t really listening.

PS out of the 5 of us I was the only one who didn’t drink alcohol : )

The last time my friends folks saw me I was drunk.In fact the last few times they have seen me I was drunk(although pretending not to be).Today is a chance to redeem myself.I will be my old, sober, talkative and coherent self.

watching reality TV, jogging on the spot and feeling really proud of myself.It’s Saturday night, I am sober and will soon be going to bed.It may not have been the most exiting way to weekend night but I made it through sober : )

The last time that I had managed to make it 11 days sober(before I had decided to officially quit) around march time I went to London to see a friend and fell off the wagon in spectacular fashion. I started by drinking a half a bottle of vodka(neat) on my journey there.We then went to a pub where we continued to drink wine.I certainly made up for those 11 sober days!

In the evening I somehow made it back home on the train but missed another appointment with a friend who I was supposed to be meeting that night.I got too drunk and forgot.

I can promise you that there will be no drinking on trains today.Or pubs, or anywhere else for that matter.I’ve made it to day 12 and that means a lot to me.

I plan on doing a food shop for healthy stuff, a bit of moderate exercise, some tidying and some chilling.For once I feel like I have energy and I want to enjoy it.

and I am really enjoying the feeling of waking up hangover free, safe in the knowledge that I havn’t made a complete prat of myself!

I have felt strong and in control for the past 10 days but I am fully aware of the power of addiction.It’s early days but all I can do is help myself as best I can.

I really do want to start seeing life from a new perspective and become the person I have always wanted to be.